"I'm not in. Leave a message."

[The popular alternative to email or carrier pigeons - contact Amber or her Mun by leaving a message here]

[LINK] After witnessing him post-electrocution, post-bus crash, and now this, Amber couldn't help but wonder how the hell House's brain wasn't fried to a burnt ashy crisp, let alone still functioning.

[LINK] She wasn't sure anyone's eyes said as much as his did; his genuine caring towards anyone who needed it, his loved when he had so much of it to give, but most of all his pain... every time he tried to help his best friend and realised that he failed all over again.

[LINK] She wasn't bitter, she was pissed off, plain and simple, and in Amber's language, there was a whole gaping canyon between the two concepts that no one seemed to dare question her about since House fired her.

[LINK] He didn't have to technically become her boss in the end for him to leave his mark on her, he made her life hell, and he still wasn't anything to her... so why was she so worried that he was suddenly at a terrible risk and dangerous risk?

[LINK] She just wanted him to try and make his mark on their relationship, to a make a choice for himself so they were on equal ground, and not to fall into step behind her like he did with everyone else in his life.

[LINK] It was over in her head, but not in her heart... she was done letting her heart rule, though, especially when Gregory House was a factor.

[LINK] She liked that he was a little naive when it came to adventurous sex because it left just that little bit more room for her to leave her mark.

Amber has joined the brand-spanking new House, M.D. RPG, headtrauma_rpg. This new game will be AU, where it picks up after Season 4 and Amber survives the trauma of the bus crash to return to PPTH as a staff member.

Should be a lot of fun, and I have the honour of joining a cast of already totally awesome House roleplayers. The game will include a lot more Diagnostic case roleplay, recently showcased in etrelibre_rpg HERE, and I can't wait to be involved in another top quality RPG.

Play will be launching soon, so watch THIS space!

"We go together like peas and carrots."

[LINK] He says hallucinating, I say haunting.

[LINK] Of course she wondered in the beginning what being a wedge between the Robin to his Batman was going to be like to sink her teeth into.

[LINK] Don't know whether to be amused he's hallucinating me, or disappointed I'm not a cool-looking zombie in his head.

[LINK] "There is no fate but your own fate", or there is no fate when you're dead.

Recently, I've had so much fun playing Amber over at etrelibre_rpg that I have decided to reprise her as a muse. I found it difficult to find her voice after her death, but the RPG has helped me find it again with a vengeance and I would like to explore writing her more.

This posed the dilemma of how do I write a dead muse? With some help of a couple of my RP buddies, the answer came to me - she's going to be basically a ghost for anything post her death.

Amber will have two verses:

- One, her House, M.D. canon which will span the whole of Season 4 from when we first meet her up until her death. Prompts from this verse will be from that timeframe, and encompass her canon relationship with Wilson.

- Two, post-death, which is just as it sounds. I didn't want to dabble in the supernatural type thing, but I think it will be an interesting way to explore present House canon from Amber's point of view. This verse will be on the premise that Amber is a ghost and got stuck after her death. Much like House's hallucination!Amber, she knows she is dead and is just hanging around Princeton Plainsboro witnessing the canon events that rolled out during Season 5. If you're happy to have your muse interact with a dead Amber, she'll gladly tell you she's dead and sticking around for the fun. Basically, the purpose of this verse is for me to write her still from a canon view point, but obviously not as something that would ever happen in the show (unless, of course, it's in House's head).

Really just a bit of tongue-in-cheek fun because she's great to write, and she's an interesting character to dabble in.

That's all!

[LINK] It was more than just a job opportunity.

I'm reprising my writing of Amber, however soley for the purpose of roleplay in etrelibre_rpg.

She will enter the game obviously before what happens in the Season finale. The canon point I am starting her in the game is post episode 4x11 “Frozen” right after she begins a relationship with Dr James Wilson; two episodes after House fires her and five episodes before her fate in the finale. For obvious reasons, at this point in her canon she is unaware of her fate and because of it may find herself unable to leave Etre Libre.

Check the RPG out if you want to read my version of Amber.

cutthroatbitch is on hiatus until the outcome of House, M.D. Season 4 is known.

February Prompts #2 - 7) Write a letter to someone you hate (the recipient can be named or anon, it’s up to you)

House,

I didn’t actually despise you when I first met you. In fact, I admired you. But then, who doesn’t admire to Oh-Great-and-Wonderful Gregory House? I didn’t even didn’t even dislike you when you fired me, but it certainly made me lose that admiration and strip any respect I may have held for you.

Oh, sure. You save lives. Whoop-de-do. Don’t we all? Isn’t that why we have that MD next to our names. You have solved almost unsolvable cases… how many cases do you take a month? Three, on a good month? Seriously, they save more lives in the ER per day than you do in weeks.

So, yeah, we’ve covered your good attributes. Are we supposed to find that bastard side of you adorable? Loveable? You might have Wilson and Cuddy covered in that sense, because really, they love to kiss your arse. Though God only bloody knows why. Seriously, you’re going to get Cuddy’s arse so sued one day that she’ll be left with nothing but her Jimmy Choos in tatters at her feet and you’ll likely kill Wilson from a simultaneous heart attack and stomach ulcer before he hits 45. Not that you care about that, and they’re adults. I’m sure they can take care of themselves. Not to mention Chase, who was probably one of the best doctors you could ever have had on your team, who picked a case without even hearing the differential or touching the patient, and you fired him.

The reasons I hate you are irrelevant here. In light of the whole Wilson, Cuddy, Chase issues I just mentioned, it didn’t take me long to get over the fact you fired me. I was just another notch on your disposable people bedpost. You didn’t fire me because I can’t accept being wrong, you fired me because you knew how much I wanted it. You didn’t fire me because I can’t accept being wrong, you fired me because you knew how much I wanted it. You fired Chase because he’d finally reached your level and you couldn’t handle that.

And truly, I hope Chase’s presence and my presence and hell, even Cameron’s presence in the hospital irks you. It’s hard to be reminded how little you actually mean in people’s lives, isn’t it?

With much affection (*snort*)

Cutthroat Bitch

Muse | Dr. Amber Volakis
Fandom | House, M.D.
Word Count | 396

A list of movies you can watch over and over

- Dirty Rotten Scoundrels
- Miss Congeniality
- Dead Poets Society
- Mrs Doubtfire
- Pulp Fiction
- Trainspotting
- The Associate
- Beaches
- Pretty Woman
- Bad Boys
- Romeo & Juliet

Muse | Dr. Amber Volakis
Fandom | House, M.D.